“Till sin be bitter; Christ will not be sweet,” Thomas Watson.
Dear diary, you know, there are some personal experiences and tales that will never come into contact with your pages, some are wry and melancholy while others are funny, sober and enlightening. Some I scribble and rethinking posting them. This is one of those scribbles I didn't want to share, however, I have thought over it again and again.
So, there's this day I had an irresistible crave for plum jam, I checked in a supermarket and bought the 100g can. I sat down in the house and scooped just a little and swallowed it. I took another scoop, the sweetness was indeed irresistible. Each time I told myself I won't devour another scoop but the sweetness was temporarily tempting. In like 30 mins, I had devoured all of it. Sooner than I finished, I started feeling nauseous and I blamed the devil for tempting me, thank God I didn't gush it out. That day I didn't do dinner because my tummy angrily growled.
Last evening I thought about plum jam and honestly I desired it. I wanted to go buy it but just remembered my past experience so I restrained myself. What's my point? It's not a cliche, Sin will always cost you more than you intended to pay, it will take you further than you intended to go, and it will keep you longer than you intended to stay. I have realized that the ancient Serpent always shows me the neon lights of Sin Street, the glamour and the good times; but he never shows me where sin leads-death, destruction and damnation! Sin is certainly pleasurable but for a moment. Sin is temporarily sweet but the consequences are dire. Countless times, I have desired the pleasure of some sin. Sometimes I have compromised and regretted. There are a thousand reasons I have tried to make it less than sinful. I also realize shame and 'what will people say if they discover my little secret' has caused me to hide it;that fear has made me try to manage it; you know, I lie then someone redefines it as wisdom, is it? What's wrong with humanity or is it only me?
Apostle Paul calls us to "Throw off the sin that easily entangles," Heb 12:1. The Psalmist (Psalm 32), invites us to deal honestly with sin. "Acknowledge sin and don't cover up your iniquity. Confess your transgression to the Lord. If you keep silent about it, your bones will waste away. Blessed is the man whose transgressions are forgiven." On the flip side, the neon lights and glamour of Sin Street is death and damnation. Tonight I can experience the joy and the blessedness of being forgiven. No longer controlled by sin. Am glad the unfailing love of God surrounds me. Am thankful to God for His grace.
Faithful Scribbler,
NzakuNashipae
NzakuNashipae
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